My therapist used to sit next to me and put her arm around me. Now she says she was always uncomfortable doing that and wishes she never had. I’m completely devastated by this. I keep trying to get over it, but it keeps coming up for me, and the pain is unbelievable. My therapist and I have discussed it a lot, and I understand her feelings. She says it has to do with her and not me. She has even agreed to continue doing it sometimes. But the hurting about it hasn’t faded for me. I’m not sure what to do. On a night like tonight, it hurts so much that I just don’t know... the hardest part is that my whole life I’ve been desperate for safe touch by someone who doesn’t think I’m disgusting. It meant everything to me to finally have it with this therapist. I can’t believe this has happened. I don’t think I should discuss it much more with my therapist though. I already have a lot, and I’m worried that she’ll get frustrated with me if I keep bringing it up. I’m also worried that the more she knows how important this is to me, the more I’ll freak her out and she’ll never do anything like this for me again. She has been patient with me and extremely kind, but I don’t know if she really understands what this is to me, how this has shaken everything for me. I don’t know. Just feeling hopeless and tired and hurting.