Hi Spiritual,

Thanks for the insight.

Despite the YIKES symbols in my post, I am pretty comfortable with the content of our exchange. Yes, I am working on integration of different aspects of myself right now with T and I am aware of that. However, I do find that if I get too far into the intellectual aspect of therapy I will use that to avoid the feeling state. I noticed your links to tonglen practice below and thought I'd share what I told T recently. I was browsing at Barnes and Noble for a book on attachment and it was too stimulating for me -- as I read I kept thinking "omg that is what happened to me OR omg that is what I did to my kids."

I told T I would stick with reading my PEMA CHODRON for now. He said that was okay because I would wind up in the same place and I am beginning to see that!



Thanks for your response.