I have problems with feeling hope too. I have a son and a husband, live too far to visit family lot even though it is an hours drive back and forth. i am in chronic pain from back desease, am schitzophrenic and have seizures. i am scared to go anywhere as i don't want to have a seizure. Then i told myself i was going to try something and i am happy i did. I joined the senior center near my home and i have so much fun with the elderly. i always was interested in working with seniors i even took social courses in college about gerentology. there is hope you just need to try more things you have even a slight interested in.