I'm sorry that this happened to you. I would be totally devastated in that position, because I also have issues with touch and I understand how hard it is but also how amazing it feels when u are able to feel the safety and closeness with someone to trust them with touch. So if my T was to have said the same thing I would honestly be beside myself and I know I would go back to the self hate and disgust I've always felt about being untouchable.
I hope you can talk to your T more about this, I think it's really important in that kind of situation to explain your side, because I don't think they can really know just how damaging something like this can be to a person.
Thankfully my T hasn't rejected me in that sense whenever I've asked, however she has ultimately rejected me by quitting so I do understand similar feelings right now!
I hope you find the strength and courage to talk with her and hopefully she can offer a better insight to her own words and actions.
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