Hi there,

If I were you, I would back off and give him a lot of space. Don't keep contacting him... let him come to you now. You've done all you can. You've tried to apologize. It is possible that you've pushed him away permanently --- but maybe not. It's really hard to say. He did bend over backwards for you, then you basically freaked out on him for not being there immediately for you exactly when you wanted him to be. I'm not coming down on you for that, many of us have done the same and you were also withdrawing and not on your anxiety med, but it is very early in the relationship for that type of problem to arise, and he DID go to great lengths to help you and be there for you. It may have really pushed him in the wrong direction. That is why I suggest sitting back and letting him come to you. You could possibly let him know that you are around if he ever wants to see you or talk to you again, then let it be and give him tons of room. So sorry this happened, but just understand that things like that can rub people the wrong way.