I told T that needing reassurance as we enter some hard things is part of who I am. She told me that she wouldn't always reassure me the way I wanted. I said this felt hard to talk about and she replies boundaries always are, as soon as boundaries were mentioned I floated off in my brain somewhere and it was time to go.

T didnt so anything wrong but I had a childish impulse to throw her "you are enough" rock on the floor. I wanted to tell her just to eff right off. I'm not sure what all of this means. I'm sure it's fine but I stress ate half a pint of ice cream anyway.

Feelings suck