honestly most of the time I feel like they are wasting resources on me (especially when I'm in for a suicide attempt)

the way I see it is



I don't think I'm worth hospital's time really and I've never thanked them for it (knocked a nurse out, that's as nice as it gets)

so yes I am ashamed, but not of the actual hospital- of coming out, realising it's done nothing for me and doing it all again