Hey I hope everyone had a good New Year’s Eve.
This is basically all that happened to me last night. So I was talking to my ex boyfriend which was a mistake on my part because he was always highly manipulative but I thought he had changed. So we go to this party with his friends last night. We were all drinking and I got a little too drunk and I passed out on the couch. It was fine, I was fine. Everyone kept talking about me and asking my ex if I was okay. I think he got very irritated about it. So when I woke up we all played pool, I accidentally knocked over his cup of alcohol. He then told me we had to talk alone. He basically told me I’m too drunk to be with his friends and I had to go Home, and that he was upset because everyone thought we were together. I told him I didn’t want to go home because there were a bunch of drunk drivers out. I went back inside and sat on the couch and cried in front of everyone, super embarrassing because they were all people I didn’t know and they were all super snobby. So I went back outside and I told my ex I was walking home. He caught up to where I was to tell me to get in the car and I pushed him out of the way. He insisted I get in the car with him so I did. The whole ride back to my friends house I was calling my friends crying and telling them what happened. I kept telling my ex he was a piece of ****. I ****ed up so bad last night and I lost him. He blocked me on everything. I don’t know how to fix it or move on with my life. I just need some advice or some sort of explanation as to why I did all this. Was the alcohol telling me he isn’t good for me or just my own stupid ***?