Why are you so cute here, you cheer me up a lot. I've been thinking about seeing a psychologist and I think I'll talk to my mother about it tomorrow. I wrote a letter because I can't say all this to her orally, I'm afraid she will abandon me or hate me. I am not the perfect son for her, am I? But my boyfriend says I have to think about my health and I think like him, I don't think I'm making the wrong choice. We talk a lot with my boyfriend and improve to reassure ourselves, it's still complicated, but we understand each other now!
I think my biggest problem is the contact with others because they hate me and I provoke them sometimes or I want information from them haha. I don't blame myself for that, I feel superior and it's great – except my love, he is so much better than me.

Edit : I said a lot of « I think » I'm really sorry.