Given that you are not in a safe environment and are in an actively abusive relationship, I would be very careful about bringing resources into the shared home where the perpetrator might discover them. Would it be an option to leave resources in your therapist's space or at another supporter's house?

I also want to add that I find some of the "healing" talk quite alienating. There is sometimes a steer towards becoming "functional" and sexual again, but it's worth remembering that this is not the gold-star state of recovery. Being non-sexual and excluding intimate touch from your life is a valid choice if you are happy, safe and accepting of it.