Even after almost seven years, I still have some trouble accepting my diagnosis. It's been a long time since my last full-blown manic episode and the memory has faded...maybe it wasn't as bad as I thought?? For the longest time I believed I was just in some existential crisis that was lasting a long time, but I know better; I just don't know that bipolar 1 is the right dx for me. I have been diagnosed with it four times though, so I suppose I ought to believe it.