I am sorry to hear that you are experiencing such severe worry. I understand the focus that makes the concern all encompassing.

You have made a good decision about seeing your Doctor when he returns from vacation. Note when you took the med, when you stopped, and when you started again, so you can answer your doctor clearly on that.

Chances are your ear infection isn't bad enough to lose your hearing over stopping for a few days. most likely your Doctor did not take a months vacation. If he did take a long one, you must see someone else that he is sending his patients too, and trust them.

If you believe the medication is causing the severe anxiety and panic attacks, I suggest you call your insurance companys nurse help line, and ask what to do. They will most likely tell you to see a Doctor as soon as possible.

What isn't helping you is focusing on what you can't control. It increases anxiety, and makes small physical feelings seem big. like how when you get a shot it barely hurts, unless you focus all your mind on that tiny area. Then it feels big.

Creativity is often recommended to take our minds off anxiety and put them in a place that changes perspective.


You are going to get through this time. You really will. <3 Peace.