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Old Jan 06, 2019, 01:59 AM
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Originally Posted by Blueberrybook View Post
Woke this morning to a low weight, made the stupid ED happy. Starting to obsess more over the bones and stuff, did really bad and went on a pro-ana site, then thinking OMG, my weight isn't low at all; I'm fat. I'm a mess. I ran in the rain for an hour this morning, wanted to keep going, but I had to get back in to make lunch. Contemplated another rain run in the afternoon but resisted and read some of my library book. Need a better day tomorrow.

My emotions are all jumbled up; I have no idea how I feel right now. H starts his new job tomorrow, and hopefully, we will get the insurance stuff sorted quickly.
The EDs sure can keep us wonky can't they? Mine tells me not to eat and then after I finally eat it tells me to eat more...so now I drink water and wait for the ED idea to pass and it does and I don't feel hungry then. I am sick of my scale. I stuck it under the kitchen stand so I don't jump on it so easily.
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