Yes, you read the title right, I ABSOLUTELY can't feel anything...
Happy? No.
Sad? No.
Even hurt? NO.
Not AT ALL.
It all started one day, a very sunny day that it actually HURTED my eyes.
I was in my classroom, sitting alone in the corner in the middle of the lunchtime , when suddenly somebody shouted at me...
'Oh hey, look at that PATHETIC girl, what is A ***** like her doing in that STUPID, FILTHY corner? Her family is so POOR that he have to eat with a TRASH CAN?'
The others laugh...
' Hey,... Ummm... What was that MUDBLOOD' s name AGAIN? Lemme see... Katheiigh? Ahh, I remember, it was CATSLEIGH! '
Just like a typical day at school...
With me sitting in the corner or walking alone outside, and with the popular girls following me around...
' Hey CATSLEIGH! You hear me? YOUR FAMILY IS POOR! YOURE USELESS! YOU DONT BELONG IN THIS SCHOOL! SO GET THE HECK OUT OF HERE! Right, gurls?'
Everyone in my class shouted ' Yup!'
'Hey!!! HEY!!! HEYYYYYY! A-are you ignoring me? You filthy MUDBLOOD! Imma...'
Usually, at that point where Angela is EXTREMELY angry and embarrassed, I would have just walk away and take the high road. I don't wanna waste my time reasoning with those immature human - beings.
But, that day, I decided to stick around a little bit longer.
And then, the most UNBELIEVABLE thing happened:
She started to throw EVERYTHING she could grab at ME.
She even threw HER PURSE at me...
I started to think this was a bad idea when the things FLEW towards me...
But then, when her purse hit me, I didn't feel a thing.
Not even hurt, sad or happy...
Even HATE...
No...

Nothing.
She was also surprised by that...
She grabbed the broom and threw it at me.
It hit me, broke apart, but me... I still couldn't feel a thing...
Even though I was BLEEDING...
No...


Using that advantage, now everyday from school to home, I always try and hurt myself real HARD, sometimes I even have thoughts of ending my life, but nothing happens.
Now, it has become a habit and I cant stop hurting my own self.
Im starting to lose my emotions too...
Can you guys give me some advice?