I guess by accepting a diagnosis I was implying taking meds, particularly APs and/or mood stabilizers.

Not sure whether I have bipolar or sza or perhaps my illness changed from the first to the second, but the medications are the same except sza leans more on the AP and I accept the propensity for delusional thinking, paranoia and auditory hallucinations will be there til the day I die, plus and all consuming state of anxious anticipatory dread.

Mood stabilizers didn't keep me out of the hospital at the doses I was able to take them so but I honestly don't think I will be hospitalized if I am on antipsychotics anyway what would they give me that I am not already taking except more of the same?