It sounds like you are doing things in striving to do better and for staying out of the hospital, which it sounds like is best for you right now..

I think it's always better to go into the hospital voluntarily.

I feel the same way. I do not like to lose my independence. I feel like people will start thinking everything I do, even just standing up for myself, will be judged as a part of illness.

I am also a very private person and would not like to be watched by staff or by other people in general.

I, too, do not know if hospitalization is in my future. I hope not. I have a plan in place with my therapist/pdoc. Terms we agree upon. Am I concerned they might overreact? Hell yes!!!

All I can do is my best to stay out of the hospital, which, for me, means med compliance and working with my therapist/pdoc outside of the hospital.

I agree with your concerns; I have some of the same concerns!

I hope you never have to go to the hospital. Yet, if we do when we TRULY need to do so, it may save our lives?


WC