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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote
It sounds like you are doing things in striving to do better and for staying out of the hospital, which it sounds like is best for you right now..
I think it's always better to go into the hospital voluntarily.
I feel the same way. I do not like to lose my independence. I feel like people will start thinking everything I do, even just standing up for myself, will be judged as a part of illness.
I am also a very private person and would not like to be watched by staff or by other people in general.
I, too, do not know if hospitalization is in my future. I hope not. I have a plan in place with my therapist/pdoc. Terms we agree upon. Am I concerned they might overreact? Hell yes!!!
All I can do is my best to stay out of the hospital, which, for me, means med compliance and working with my therapist/pdoc outside of the hospital.
I agree with your concerns; I have some of the same concerns! 
I hope you never have to go to the hospital. Yet, if we do when we TRULY need to do so, it may save our lives?
WC |
Thank you for your response. You seem to be very very kind
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Yes. Well. Right now Im having on and off suicidal thoughts. But I know they are just a part of- well- my life. And I dont plan on acting on them. I habe too many people in my life that I care about to hurt myself- because that would hurt them too!
I dont tend to really value my own safety. I dont have a substance abuse problem but I do... tend to... when I do drink or smoke- do it until Im in a pretty bad state. Im going to try to stop doing that. I want to stay away from hospitals- and hurting myself in any way- intentional or not- will not help!
Anyways. Thank you so much for this response. Sometimes it helps to know that there are other people who understand. In my life... there just really arent.
But yeah. I hope I dont have to ever go to a hospital. Tbh. I almost think Id rather die. But maybe thats sickness talking. I dont know