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Originally Posted by downandlonely
I went to the hospital once, and believe me it was much better than dying. I checked myself in voluntarily. I would have liked to stay longer actually, but they said I had to leave because I was not suicidal. It was nothing like jail. I had my own room (although sometimes you have a roommate). And we had some group therapy during the day.
Just wanted to let you know that it is not that bad at all. If you need to go to keep yourself safe, I believe you should do it.
About the drinking and smoking, have you thought about joining some addiction support groups? I go to a depression support group that I find very helpful.
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Mm I dont really drink or smoke that much. Its just when I do it- I go all out and just get wasted or stoned to the point of passing out and not being able to walk and stuff. Its more just a... release... or a vacation for me. To not have to worry sbout taking care of myself for a while. To just be able to let go.
I only do it like... maximum... once a month.
But I kind of wish there was a group I could go to. Because I have no one really besides doctors to talk to about it all in real life. They all think its just... it makes them scared to know how much of a... how sick I am I guess. So I dont tell anyone. But there isnt one. Only for people with substance abuse problems which I dont really think I have. Im not addicted to anything but the idea of- vacations from myself.
Usually I handle things pretty well. But the last... 6 months... havent been great.
I dont think itll get worse. Only better. At least thats the hope. I really hope that. And Im willing to work towards that.
My parents are actually a big part of why I cant go to a hosptial. They... not until I get my own insurance and get some distance from them. I cant stand the idea of them long term taking my freedom away if I go to the hospital and they take my freedom away short term.
But thank you tons for this reply! Yeah. One thing Im afraid of is if I go once... Ill keep having to go. Its good too to know that doesnt always have to be the cade