thankyou fuzzybear and nowheretorun.
Your hugs really helped, it means a lot to me that you took the time to read what i had written.
Well i had another night crying on the phone to my mum but now i have a few more things in place....i can text her when i am feeling down in the day - human contact without having to speak really comforts me and i'm going to try walking a bit more everyday which hopefully get the endorphins going.
I'm going to try a few more days before i increase the dose of meds as i really don't want to have to do this.
I sound strong and postive don't i? I'm not but i am blessed to have people like you and my wonderful family to support me so i will keep trying.
thank you,