I feel so bad about myself. I’m so low and my brain turns everything into hopelessness. Everything in my life has turned bad or is just pathetic.

I just lie in bed now. Just got back from my therapist and now I feel worse. When not even she understands/knows what to do I’m really lost.
Been suicidal for some days.

I get so scared. For life and for dying. I don’t see any way out.

What should I do?