I'm so sorry, Pinocchio46 I think a solution could be to write to her, instead of talking face-to-face. The decision of reading or replying will then be up to her. You could say you're sorry for how things went down, if you're still feeling guilty. Or you may simply thank her for the help she provided so far. I think it's important to give it some kind of closure. I also think it could be useful to find some more friends, if you haven't already. That way you'll be able to talk to a variety of people. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. Sending many hugs to you