I'm sorry that happened. Do you hurt yourself to try to feel? Sometimes hurting ourselves keeps us from feeling...other times, it starts us feeling again when we have been numb. SH can become a habit or addiction and can be very difficult to stop but it can be done. Do you have a therapist to talk to? Or a trusted person like someone in your family, or clergy, or teacher? No one deserves to be bullied. If that is still happening, is there a teacher you can tell or a school counselor? HUGS Kit