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Old Jan 07, 2019, 03:12 PM
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Originally Posted by MatBell View Post
I feel so bad about myself. I’m so low and my brain turns everything into hopelessness. Everything in my life has turned bad or is just pathetic.

I just lie in bed now. Just got back from my therapist and now I feel worse. When not even she understands/knows what to do I’m really lost.
Been suicidal for some days.

I get so scared. For life and for dying. I don’t see any way out.

What should I do?

My first vote is to tell your therapist some version of what you told us. If not your therapist, someone. Family, friends. You might find they'll offer you a way back to the path. It is the old cliche "A burden shared is a burden halved."


In the meanwhile, what has made you smile in the past? Being with friends? Being with family? YouTube cat videos? Whatever it is, try and do at least one think that makes you smile.

As my family ends texts, letters to me:
Be Safe Be Cool
__________________
"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
-Litany Against Fear (Dune)
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Thanks for this!
MatBell, Wild Coyote