I feel massive.I am feeling encouraged,got all my diet books out and recipe books to study and see what is best to eat to lose weight and control my diabetes.I don't know how its going to turn out,I don't want to be impatient and want to lose it quickly and undereating to the extreme for a few days and binge eat the next few days,so nice,slow and steady and healthy foods,withdraw from sugar cravings and extract all the sugar from my bloodstream and so replace that with a steady stream of nutritious fuel for my body of healthy foods.That is the theory anyway.

Feeling massive,ugly,heavy,and old and unfit is making me depressed too.I feel so unwell,I don't care about my looks cos it's what is inside that counts but I can potentially be much healthier,have more energy and I could look a whole lot better too which would help my confidence and self esteem.I could do with fitting into smaller size clothes that I have had for ages.