It's been a while since I posted, so I figured I should get online and see what's going on and provide an update. I have felt stable for two or three weeks now. It's been a long term desire of mine to try and join the navy, and a friend of mine is very supportive. I have another friend who isn't so supportive and my Mom doesn't seem supportive either. I would have to go off my medications. They say that I am stable because of the medication, but I think they don't want me to succeed. I'm almost too old, so the clock is ticking. I have to go off medication, lost weight, and somehow prove that my diagnosis isn't right. It's a long shot. I have had a lot of hospitalizations and have had multiple electroconvusilve therapy treatments over the years. But, I haven't had any serious hallucinations for several weeks now, so it's possible I'm cured. Right? My friend and my Mom say no; but, what if they are just plotting against me so I don't reach my life goals?