I don't know, I don't have any answers. But, I wish I had been Bob from "What About Bob" and ruined his vacation

After I took too many pills, I didn't ruminate. I always ruminate, even when I sleep. I don't want to glamorize this, but I felt kind of free. I probably shouldn't have mentioned this. I'm just so sick of my brain being in control.

My wonderful (huh) husband went off for 3 days starting today for a conference. I asked him if he could cancel, and he said I'M GOING. I'm so overwhelmed right now. He goes to these conferences and only attends a few sessions. Most of the time he just goes around and does other things, like it's a vacation for him. This is fine, usually. But what @#$@#$@ timing. Thanks ALOT. He's probably looking at every *** that passes him. He's such an *** himself. Am I just being selfish here?