I don't think so. That would involve even more distress. If I find one that I like, then I have to have yet another awkward email with my current T. And if I can't find one, then that just reinforces my feeling like a loser. It's easier to stay where I am. I've given myself a week for a decent pity party, then it's time to suck it up buttercup and just do the hard work. But thanks for the idea.