I'm so so sorry you have to go through this. It seems like you've decided to stay. I hope it works for you. However if you still don't feel right with that T, know that it's probably their fault, not yours. One has to feel comfortable in therapy in order for it to work. It doesn't seem like this therapist cares about the human aspect of therapy. However I guess there have to be some positives because you've decided to stay. I hope they outweigh the negatives for you.