Thank you so much, It is quite infuriating. I wish I could say I just have a bad self esteem, but you want to know the crazy part- I feel like I could do so much better, I feel like I'm capable of so much more and I want to do it--------but then I freeze. OMG what if this means that and if that means that than this means this!

Its like I am disconnected from myself. I don't think I'm a bad person, I don't think I'm that stupid...but I don't know where I need to channel anything. I don't have any sense with it, its like stumbling around, and around, and around.

I feel like my overthinking is a symptom of something that might be simple and easy to fix, but Im too scared and I don't know how.

Ok its my childhood---cool I know that, but now what? right?

im making myself dizzy.

Sadly, I cant afford therapy....Its great for me and often, I find myself having progress when I am in therapy....but I cant afford. :\

Thank you for the support sorry for flooding like a nut job