I am in one of those mood swings, feeling very down this weekend. I wrote some notes on how I am feeling on friday. As I read them, they scare me. this is the first time ( as far as I can remember) that I have wrote my feelings down.. when I feel this way, it gets hard to explain. I am not sure what to do. I have been depressed for a few years now, feel like I am in a rut. Everytime I think I feel a little better, the bad feelings come back and kick me down again. It is fery fustrating.