It's not lame..it's okay. I would never tell my parent either. They know I use to but even when they found out..after reading my journal..they did nothing about it except embaress me and make me feel like %#@&#!. I hope they never find out I still self injure. My parents don't believe my when I try to explain to them that I have problems with reality..they laughed at me and is now my mom's favorite joke to comment on the fact that I hear voices. People can be cruel and people just won't understand at times.
I'm sorry that so many people have broken your trust again and again..that is horrible to go through.
I know you are a strong person..and things will be okay. It's okay to pour your heart out you don't have to apologize. Everyone has a right to be heard.
Things will get better, hold on to that faith!! Look at you now you are seven days without SI..I'm lucky if I make it a day. Noone is a failure at life..we all just take diffrent paths.
Hugs
Silversparrow