Maybe it's silly that I'm even asking. I'm in a DBT group and have a lot of skills I've acquired. But ever since I talked to my therapist last week about complex trauma, and that I have it...at first it was empowering. Now I'm just angry.
I have been triggered a lot lately. And when it comes to DBT, everything's just flown out the window. I know I need to get back on board with it. I also think I need to talk to someone. And I also think...I need to admit that I went overboard on Facebook this morning.
I was so triggered. By someone not responding to my private message. It pushed me over the edge. Because I think I'm too nice. People dismiss me like it's no big deal to them. I'd had it.
So I posted something. And I said I'd had enough of that kind of thing basically. I didn't call anybody out. And it wasn't about just one person. I feel ignored and stepped on by so many. Then I deleted like 25 people. Including my cousins fiance who is crazy, but who is not a good friend. I'm sure I opened a whole can of worms for myself. Yuck.
This is ALL something I'm going to have to deal with. But right now I just want to hide. Regardless, I will call my therapist.
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