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Originally Posted by ElectricManatee
I have written plenty of things down for my T to read in session. I actually have a separate notebook where I write things down for/to her. Sometimes it's because I know I will have be uncomfortable saying something, and sometimes it's because the thing is complicated or delicate and I want the time and space to figure out exactly how to say it. My T has been receptive and agrees to read things to herself instead of reading them aloud or asking me to read them aloud (which I would hate).
I have found that it can be a useful way to share something. I think writing first does make it easier for me to share things in conversation with her too. But I think the main thing for me is that sometimes I feel like I can express things more thoughtfully and completely in writing, so that's mostly why I do it.
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This pretty much sums up my reasons for it.
Sometimes I do read it out loud myself though. If I don't read it out loud my T reads it out loud. As much as it makes me uncomfortable, it's also reassuring. I hide my head and don't look at him, so his tone gives me feedback as he's reading. He usually sounds sad and kind, not disgusted like I fear.
My T likes that I do it because we're able to have conversations about topics that we wouldn't have otherwise because I can't bring myself to just say the stuff on the spot as a monologue. I use it to open up the discussion and get the most difficult stuff out there, and then we talk about it.