So I had to pause my therapy for a few months due to changed circumstances in my life (negative change). I told my T I would be back after the holidays but now it seems I won't be able to return by the end of February /March.
My therapy is online including live chat 2x a week plus messaging on the website almost daily. As you can imagine, I miss this a lot! Once my T shared some photos with me on Google and I saved her private mail address. I wished her merry Christmas during the holidays - no reply.
Yesterday I messaged her on fb (we aren't friends there). I wrote her to tell her I won't be back as we agreed (in January) and explained why. I also wrote a brief summary of what happened in December. I tried to make it neutral and I didn't ask any questions, didn't make it sound like I'm in crisis.
I only wrote to her because as a private teacher, If my student promised to be back after the holidays and they didn't come I would wonder what happened? And I would think about them. So I only wanted to let her know to be polite and "professional".
I think I made a mistake by sending her photos of my mother's wounds on her hands. Then I thought it was too much so I also sent her a photo of my cat to compensate and show that I'm OK, she doesn't need to worry.
Now I think I screwed up massively and I'm very embarrassed for doing this. She hasn't replied yet. When I messaged her on the website she always replied in a couple of hours max.
Now it looks like I'm a needy and clingy stalker! I'm so pathetic!