From experience, they don't understand, or tend to think it's not that bad, or mistake it as an attention seeking behaviour, or say I have a bad attitude... The few times I was IP I ended up pretending to get better so I would be discharged because I was feeling worse while IP, and when I told the psychiatrist I was feeling worse he would ignore it (worse because of the meds and how they treated me). I remember once, there was a lady who was having a depressive episode because of her husband death, the staff was really gentle with her (and her psychiatrist seemed to be gentle too from what she told me), I was in the middle of a depressive episode because of 18 years of mental and physicial abuse from my parents and being completely alone and almost homeless and they treated me like a wayward child, as if I had done something wrong, deeply mischievous.

Like "You are wrong for feeling that way".

Once I had a therapist that helped me a lot, he was really supportive, I didn't hide anything.

The one I asked for a referral today asked me if I seriously thought I needed therapy... then he said he was sorry for being unable to help me. I don't know, maybe he thought I was Ok because I stopped telling him the problems I am having since his answers were almost always invalidating?

I guess... maybe my suffering is normal and I just have to bear it all my life? Maybe it's normal to be unable to have a social life, go out ot my room without an almost anxiety attack or a full blown panic attack, sleep less than 6 hours a day (5.5 is being lucky), have nightmares almost every night, the hypervigilance, feeling the most worthless **** on the world, losing my job and missing all my exams (I can do them in July, I have a second chance...)