I'm so sorry, ~Christina It sounds like you're dealing with a lot right now. Please don't give up. Things can get better. Remember that you're very loved here, as many have already shown. So please don't feel guilty about writing here, you're not whining at all. I'm glad you're going to see your T next week! Maybe that could help. I hope you're feeling a bit better this morning. Feel free to PM me anytime. Sending many hugs to you