Took the day off to mull this over. If ive realized one thing from this is that i am so not ready for it. Which means my recovery isnt strong enough. Its clear to me that i cannot, should not pursue any romantic venture. Romance can and often is wonderful and stressful. It aches me more than i can say in words to not be able to go out with this amazing women. Its one of those rare connections you find once in a long while. MI is cruel. Unfair. Merciless. Dont i deserve a little tenderness in my life after everything?

I explained or atleast tried to, her my reasons, my inability to handle anything intense for the moment. And she took it really well. She said she doesnt want to hurt me and will make sure that she never acts on whatever there is between us. I have to take responsibility for making sure that i stay singedly focus on healing. Maybe i will find that kind of happiness oneday if i work hard enough.

Thanks for listening and sharing your thoughts.