I would expect that strong need comes from a place of having been hurt and put down that is not yet healed, wouldn't you? I'm not a therapist of course -- and not on this forum to be or to pretend to be someone else's therapist. There's a difference between interacting with therapists and interacting with real people, 3D people, even 2D people online.

My aggression was kind of split off, too. And I had to act it out, first, in order to learn about it. Mostly with T's, who then weren't as understanding as Jessica's. And while it's great if a T can tolerate and understand that most people in real life don't or can't or won't.

It's a real challenge to integrate that aggression, I get that if that's part of what is involved. But part and parcel of the challenge, as I see it, is to try to find ways to accept pushback from people and comments that maybe weren't what I wanted but are what the other people had to offer. That's what they/we/I have. It's all free here and volunteer. Sometimes you get something you like and that is helpful, sometimes you don't.