On on hand i am sick woth flu, all my body hurts. my thorat hurts, i feel weak and i tend to lie down and be zombee and lazy

On the other I have tomorrow a presentation and on wednsday there will be a lesson for a project that is very important.......and i don`t want to miss it it`s a project we do with a real company and one of the class works maybe will be chosen..and i have cool ideas.....i just want to carrie them out and i feel so sick and weak.....

I called my dad and another old friend of mine and they both sadi that the decition is up to me

And i feel bad for asking them because i feel that it`s hidden between their words:

WHAT THE HECK YOU ARE BEING SPOILT LIKE THAT BAD BECAUSE OF EVERY LITTLE AILING YOU RUN HOME AND MISS STUDLES?!

but it`s not them ut`s something that goes in my head

WHY ARE YOU NOT TRYING AT LEAST YOU HAVE A MUST AND YOU CANNOT RELAPSE RIGHT NOW

om the other hand as i go i feel hwoeverything hurts and i hardly put on my shues and everyhting is so slow and i don`t have patience for suck "work"

I just felt bad after tlaking with my dad i thought of comming to them because there at home i can see a doctor and i this place i don`t have and she can give me a note for college and i can rest and they will gove me the meds that here i have to go and buy when hardly %#@&#! walking

so i feel like a %#@&#! spoilt stupid little girl and got somewhat angry with myself for almost deciding to be spoilt and go to beer sheva and throw all the hand ins aways

i don`t to be the one who alwyas is whining and complaning i despise this i knwo i will despise myself if i am like that

i am sorry if i am bieng like that right now

Just curious - IF you were me -what will you do??