You are an amazing person who must have incredible strength to have made it this far with so many struggles. Your compassion for others shines through here. To be encouraging others while going through what you do is inspiring. I’m so sorry your hope is low right now. I understand what it’s like to have chronic physical issues on top of Bipolar. It’s a tough road with so many losses. However I know you can get through this rough patch. Hang in there. May hope fill your soul very soon.