I think i know part of the reason why i havent worked in almost a week or two. Aside from a few days working.

I think im partially burnt out cuz i went so hard. And im just getting depressed again. Which probably partly brought on the episode last night with alcohol idk

Im just tired. I want to get married. Im ready for the next step and the bf isnt ready.

I know

I know

I know. I just. I hate redundancy.