I’ve had hocd for years now and it’s improved a little but it’s not enough. I’m 30 now I’ve liked a ton of guys over the years but never had s boyfriend. I am now in love with a guy I’ve never felt these feelings before though I’m not with him and when I think of how gorgeous he is and way thinking of him makes me feel good but now my hocd is ruining it I have constant doubts that I don’t really like him or find him attractive and it makes me feel dishusting and empty. My mind constant makes up fhoughts against me liking him and I cannot deal with it it’s unbearable to have to constantly have thoughts making me doubt who I am and what I really want. Anyone have any advice?