Kind of a bad day today. Found out my sister totaled her car yesterday because of bad weather. But she is now in the hospital for totally unrelated reasons. She was suicidal so they thought that being in the psych ward is the best thing for her right now. She has been suicidal on and off since November. The same time that I started IOP. I almost went inpatient last November for suicidal thoughts. So now I am having mixed feelings. I am glad she is getting help. But when she gets out they probably will want her in IOP. The problem is it would be the same class that I am currently taking. That is not allowed. Should I quit the program and let her go or have her go to the other agency in our county? I don't think it would be fair to have me quit. I am not ready to stop yet. That is the only thing keeping me sane. Winter is difficult for me. I don't want to slide backwards in my recovery. Scared right now. What to do?