Feeling really good and happy. It was Scrabble last night. It was fun to see the Scrabble Pals. They're all so smart! I'm playing the higher division now and it's almost all men and it's very challenging. I couldn't even follow some of the stuff they were saying. One expert player sent me home with homework! Everyone is super helpful. I didn't do well in my games but it was just mostly sh_t luck.

I've noticed i sometimes don't enjoy activities that much while i'm doing them, like last night when i was losing so badly, but the next day i only remember the good things and i'm really happy i went. So, with that in mind, i scheduled two more activities that i've been waffling about.

I did my exercising today and really enjoyed it. I'm still very flexible from being a gymnast as a youngster. The greatest thing happens when i'm done my routine and i stand in front of the mirrors drinking my water: it looks like i have lost 100 pounds! I guess i think of myself as gigantic and when i finish exercising i feel better about my body and i see that i am just large and not gigantic at all.

My neighbor and i ran the dogs this afternoon and it was so delightful to see how my dog is just frenzied with excitement over the ball they chase! I love to make her happy. My neighbor and i are getting so close i almost feel like she's my best friend! She's super helpful. Actually, it's absurd how helpful she is and i feel so blessed to have her!

I'm cooking more and having indulgences and pleasures at home that i would never have had before. I would always have had to go out to a restaurant to have them. It's so nice to be able to provide for myself in my own home and i'm developing good skills in the kitchen.


I'm so happy!!!