I’m at work. Took a klonapin this morning. About to freaking crawl out of my skin. My pdoc is out of the office until next Thurs. not sure how I’m going to make it. I’ve already caught myself singing loudly and I feel like I’m in an alternate reality as well as having a heightened anxiety. I want to curl in a ball of the floor and rock and I want to dance and I want to laugh and I want to scream. But, I have to make it through this day. I have to make it through this day. I feel like Michael and Janet’s song Scream right now. It’s blasting in my head and guiding my footsteps. The kids are climbing all over me: “Mrs Sarah, Mrs Sarah” I am giggling with them. And my face, currently is void. I feel like I am so obvious. To my family I am.