Still depressed today but not as scared or hopeless. I did take one more half day from work just to burn up my personal days even though I probably shouldn’t have as I could have made it through. This is the last day I’ll take. I’ll push myself through next week. Although I’m hoping I’ll be feeling better since I feel slightly better today. Maybe the increase in haldol is working. Maybe I won’t have to use the emsam. I can’t use it for two weeks anyway so I have some time to decide.

I’m probably going to take a nice nap. Then I won’t be exhausted for tonight.