I'm so sorry, bluebicycle That comment was certainly rude and totally uncalled for. I'm so sorry you have to put up with this. As for the meds, I'd suggest to think carefully about it. For many people, meds have been a lifesaver. If you're struggling, I'd suggest to try it - at least with a low dosage. I understand your fears, but please think carefully about this. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you