I take meds because it's meds or involuntary hospitalization. No therapist will work with me off medication. I can't constantly be in and out of the hospital and be there for my family. The hospital sucks and I'm avoiding it at all costs. As for mind control meds are mind numbing but at least for me not mind control. I would get a crap pre-paid phone for like $15 and look up your T's number. You really really need to talk to him/her. Do you trust your T?