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Yes there is an on call doc but she gave me her cell phone and told me to call her. I don’t remember about sleep. I can’t remember. I remember hearing my husband’s alarm at 4 AM from all the way downstairs and I didn’t go back to sleep. But I’ve been up since 4 AM and I’m supposed to sleep tonight but I don’t know how to go to sleep tonight. I don’t know how I can close my eyes long enough to try. I don’t know how to lay my body down. I don’t know how.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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