I just talked to her a few hours ago. I think my mind has disappeared about 90% more in just the time since I talked to her. I feel like someone has pressed fast forward on a vhs tape. She is out of the office until next thurs but I have her cell phone. The on call doc had me taking klonapin since last night and my own pdoc is having me continue that and increasing my seroquel from 400 to 600 MG. I have to work on Monday. I’ve held my job down for a year and a half. I’m a teachers aid and am about to work on my teaching degree again. It won’t take much. I can’t afford this. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I know that after the klonapin settles in, the anxiety will subside but I know I will still be on a god damn maglev.